Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Friday, December 16, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Why things have to be set to a certain proportion? Since when society dictates what size should something be? I am not referring to buildings, or mundane things. I am referring to sentimental objects. If something is not large enough, does it mean you are less, you are poor, and you are not worth looking at?
Everything seems to be set to a certain notion or value, and if you decide to be different, they will come and point at you for not following their own rules.
Monday, December 5, 2011
I have never felt so lost.
How could I have let this happen to me?
This is the first time where I do not know what lies ahead.
Everything worries me, I feel incapable of doing something.
THE CHOICE LIES WITH YOU!
What choice? Where should I turn, and to who?
I feel incapable of proceeding. My heart races faster than I can think.
The moment is gone, the pain is stronger, and the wound in my heart is draining my last breath.
OH, HELP ME! CAN YOU HEAR ME? HELP ME!
My tears are sour and black, the anguish is profound.
I feel like crying, I feel like screaming, I feel empty.
I am empty because I do not have anyone to support me, I can not distinguish left from right.
I feel cold and weary.
Everyone just wants what they want, nothing is for me, and everything is taken from me.
Nevertheless, I would like to refer to the possibility of changing my views towards this matter. I recall having asked you, what was your opinion on this particular subject, unfortunately to no avail.
I sense that it will be impossible to gain enough knowledge and still be capable of understanding the philosophy behind this doctrine.
DO NO UNDERESTIMATE MY PERSON!
I tried to reflect on these feelings, I tried a different approach, but those were too strong to ignore.
I thought myself capable of controlling them. No, how can I?
How can I control something that is stronger than I? How can I?
Maybe tomorrow everything will be different. I will wake up with the knowledge that everything was a mere dream, a dream that will be hard to forget, nevertheless a dream.